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Who’s Guiding Who?

It’s 2 am as we speak, most my community is tucked in their beds…. I am not. My head is spinning a million miles an hour. I have butterflies, I feel sick. I have waves of excitement replaced by those of dread, then full on panic. I had a “bomb” dropped on me this week. The news has sent me into a tail spin. My business partner has decided to step down for the sake of her family. Because of this, I have some pretty big decisions to make myself. Do I proceed onward and upward, or do I forfeit the store front- in favor of working on a smaller scale. I love our little shop! I love the people I meet because of it, I love the chances I have to minister to others through those meetings. And that is what this little shop has been for me- my ministry. But I can’t do this alone. So I am left with this unsettling feeling of just what to do.
So-at two a.m. as I turn to my bible, I end up with this passage- and it’s subsequent devotion:

I will bless the L ord who guides me; even at night my heart instructs me. I know the L ord is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me. (Psalms 16:7, 8 NLT)

It is human nature to make our own plans and then ask God to bless them. Instead, we should seek God’s will first. By constantly thinking about the Lord and his way of living, we will gain insights that will help us make right decisions and live the way God desires. Communicating with God allows him to counsel us and give us wisdom.

How do I have the wisdom to discern my plans and God’s plans for me? He is good. He has granted us success with this shop. He has opened doors for me to meet people that would have never come into my life, were it not through the store. But, what about the ministry of motherhood? Because right now, we are DEEPLY lacking in that area. My family’s cracks are growing wider. I am at this point- is my glory to Him in a shop or in my family??
Can I be at peace in a simple life? Do I want to define my worth through my children or through my work because, now is that time.
Now is when I decide the answer, and act accordingly.



No scriptural reference this morning- just a little journaling.
Hubs finally got a job offer last week, not one I was happy about. I know. Who’s NOT happy about a job offer after several interviews and many months no work?? Me. Apparently. You see, I had my reasons. I’m upset with the company still (same place that laid him off). I just feel like we have seen our day with this company BUT…. and then there is the small issue of money. They offered less than he’s making now, but NOW they will be taking out for insurance and retirement. We countered- ok he countered- and they didn’t even budge. Not even one penny. So I have my issues with that as well. (Is the employment world so changed that the employer is THAT entitiled!? In the world I remember, they give a little wiggle room so they can move up a bit- but ok). So needless to say for my own selfish reasons I’m less than ecstatic about hubs “new” job. That is until last night at church.
Last night I listened to one of our a church families as they asked for prayer because they just found out- due to recent cutbacks in job- that they will have to sell their house and downsize. I listened to her go into detail about the worries they have putting food on the table and figuring out bus fare to get their 13 year old daughter down to them for her monthly visit. Then I listened as another member of our church family explain uncertainty with their workplace, firings and resignations that have completely tipped his team over the scale of normalcy and efficiency.
Then we continued on our discussion of the book of the Judges.
All the sudden I could see how selfish I was being. How entitled I felt. I’m tired of treading water- I want to get a little ahead. If our car dies I’d like to have some wiggle room that we can make a car payment if needed. But that’s not the plan.., right now. I keep giving God the praise to the outside world but in my prayers I try and negotiate with him. “If you offer this, I will do this in return.” And just as I was shown in sermon last night– Jephthah negotiated with God and he lost. He gave glory to Him when he won his battles but in prayer he negotiated. He negotiated himself out of his only child.
Soooooo…..rounding things out. I was shown the ugliness of my grave sin last night. I am sorry to God for not accepting His gifts to our family graciously. I am sorry to my hubs for causing him to doubt himself and (I’m sure) his ability to provide sufficiently for this family. I apologize to my church family because I thought i was so entitled that i put my needs above theirs and was blind to their struggles. I am human- I am prone to selfishness, poor decisions, works based thoughts for salvation, and ungrateful actions. But that is why Jesus sat on that cross for me. Not because of who I am- but because of His great love for me.

Just Ask

I was in Matthew today-Matt 7:7 to be exact :
“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. (Matthew 7:7 ESV)

Our God is a great, merciful, spoiling Father. Like a King with his children, there is nothing he would deny us…if we but ask. Sometimes I think- well He knows my heart why do I need to ask? But i’ve come to the conclusion the asking is more for me. And this is why:

One needs to be HUMBLE enough to realize they can’t do it on their own, they need to ask for help.
One needs to exercise PATIENCE when relying on someone else to provide for them.
One needs to show FAITH in the person they ask.
One needs to TRUST that the person they ask to help loves them enough to assist.

God WILL answer me once I can exhibit humility, patience, faith and trust in Him and his provision.

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Doomsday Prepper-Heeding God’s Word or Satan’s Fear?

Job 5:19-27-
I’m on a countdown. My countdown is not to Christmas…it’s to the end of the Mayan calendar. how can you not be at least a little interested in what may come to pass on that day? We are surrounded by fear, awe and wonder when it comes to the subject of the end of the world.
It bogs down Google- it’s all over cable, and there are at least a dozen movies made about the subject. But where do Christians stand?
I have a doomsday prepper pretty close to me. In the past few years DP has filtered a lot of things down to me as he has researched our pending doom. What I came to realize is that spending anytime on the subject would leave me feeling uncertain, afraid, and completely uneasy.
As I mentioned DP is pretty darn close to me. So I have had to take his information and just let it pass by the way. It’s been very hard for me- but I’ve had to stop opening e-mails from him and be very careful not to engage him in conversation that comes around to the subject.
This past weekend, I happened across another bit of DP information, but this time on Pinterest. As I read Through the blog post I felt those same old feelings of unease creep up.
So- I need these words today. What pulled me through my fear earlier this year was my faith that His name and His gospel bear GOOD news. Where I have been able to recognize his hand in so many awful situations, I need to remember His hand is here too. Our economic weakness is His doing. My survival in said Depression…..that’s His work as well.
If my house is in order and at peace, whom then shall I fear?
If I worry about tomorrow and the looming death and destruction, am I then saying I don’t trust in Jesus and his deliverance of my soul? I can prepare my home but that doesn’t just mean hoarding firearms, fuel, and food. It means putting my house in order to accept Him into our lives. NO MATTER WHAT THE CIRCUMSTANCE. It means building a foundation on a rock strong enough to weather the storm. If I, like Job can build an unwavering faith in Jesus Christ-I, like Job will be rewarded with a second chance at life full of more happiness than I could have EVER imagined.
I did a search and found a few tidings of joy as far as this subject is concerned–
With overwhelming research leading back to idols and occult, this is what I found….
“Besides this doomsday prophecy, our society has a fascination with various degrees of the occult which includes astrology, fortune telling, palm reading, crystals, channeling, spirituality, new age practices, witchcraft and others. And Satan is behind all of them.”
A Dangerous Fascination (Deuteronomy 18:9-14)
Just as most of us are naturally curious about a magician’s trick, the Israelites were curious about the occult practices of the Canaanites. Because Satan was involved in these practices, God warned Israel to avoid them. People today are still fascinated by horoscopes fortune-telling, witchcraft and cults. Often their interest comes from a desire to know and control the future. But the information Satan offers is likely to be distorted or completely false. With the trustworthy guidance of the Holy Spirit through the Scriptures and the church, we don’t need to turn to occult sources for information.

Just Say No to the Occult (Leviticus 20:6)

Everyone is interested in what the future holds. We often look to others for guidance. But God warned the Israelites against looking to the occult for advice. Mediums and psychics were outlawed because God was not the source of their information. At best, occult practitioners are fakes whose predictions cannot be trusted. At worst, they are in contact with evil spirits and are thus extremely dangerous. We don’t need to look to the occult for information about the future. God has given us the Bible-a trustworthy source-for guidance. Is it your one-stop wisdom check?

Acting on What’s Right (1 Samuel 28:3-25)

Although Saul had banned all mediums and psychics from Israel, he turned to one in desperation. Likewise, we may make a great show of denouncing something that we know is wrong. Yet if our heart doesn’t change, we may find ourselves doing what we said was wrong. Knowing what is right and condemning what is wrong does not take the place of doing what is right.

These were found here:

Colossians 3:1, “If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God. Set your affection on things above, not on things on the earth.”

And finally- one of my favorite scriptures I think is perfect here: Matthew 6:25-33
“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?
And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. (Matthew 6:25-33 ESV)

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Those That Will Inherit the Earth

In “Golden Boy’s” dedication, I was asked to choose a scripture to put on his certificate.  That scripture is 1Tim 4:12-Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young.  But set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, faith and purity.

I chose it, never having heard it before, but it struck a chord.  He is the last, the youngest to complete this family circle.  He has two older brutes for siblings, and a doting sister.  He has an uphill battle proving himself to those three merely for the fact of his birth order.   For those reasons I felt it important to impart to him that even though he will go through life fighting the stigma of “little bro”.  Heck Joseph(ya know- the one with the coat) was one of the youngest of his brothers and he ended up being a great and wise leader.

This morning I came across the following and thought it fit perfectly.  I spend alot of time praying for my children’s health, their comfort, their well being. Then I spend a lot of time HOPING they will grow up knowing God, HOPING they will have integrity, HOPING they will respect others…but have I ever prayed for it?  Seems like I’ve been missing the point the entire time.

Graphic found on pinterest

Thanks for walking with me.